Frustrated.

I am FRUSTRATED. I feel like everything is a mess! Things won't work on my way. My plans doesn't go the way I wanted it. Okay, it's not like I'm a control freak - in fact, I am not. But lately (well not lately), since last semester things won't just be the way I wanted it. I started the semester with the great plans on my head. for the first time, in my actual life I actually did plan something, and in the end it didn't go well. Before, even though there are bad times, where things won't work the way I wished for it, still things go quite smoothly. Now, everything seems a battle. Like in every step of the way there's hindrances.

Like in the first half of my last semester, our thesis proposal didn't go well. We revised EVERYTHING! We ended up having a thesis we don't love, and that we actually have to love over time. We had constant battle with the DEAN of our college. My exams, if not failed I only got enough passing score (which is of course, my fault). My internship in one of the best institution (I think) got postponed a lot of times. So I ended up, having to wait for  like 5 months for me to have a slot there! Then when I actually "thought" that I already have the slot because I did apply and they said YES, that they'll just call me and I can start in next month. So I was waiting for their message but doesn't received anything a week or two before the month I supposed to start. then, I actually decided call and asked when can I actually start my internship. Then they asked me if I give them my resume! And I was like of course! I did passed that to you! I wouldn't apply here without one??!! I simply just said yes, then they told me to come back next month and I can start right away!!! DAMN THAT! Like, really? I waited for that internship and now you're telling me to wait again????! I did a lot of waiting, my schedule was all ruined because of that wasted waiting for that "dream" internship!

So I decided to look for another company/institution, because I have to finish my 200 hrs. of internship within this month because next month I have to focus in our thesis if I want to graduate on time.

My diploma is hanging on a thread! Our thesis is not progressing fast enough. I still have problems that maybe the dean won't sign our endorsement for the other company since it's pretty late now.

If I'm gonna meet him, I must update him regarding our thesis because apparently he's our thesis adviser.

Anyways, pray for me guys! I want to graduate on time not just for me but for my parents. I think they deserve to see me on stage getting my diploma. They did most of the hard work you know.

PLEASE LORD, OUR GOD. PLEASE?