I found this one in facebook.
I was so obsessed in being perfect - in being the best. I am perfectionist in mind. Yes, in mind alone. I don't want to elaborate what I mean about perfectionist in mind alone since I couldn't explain it anymore clearer than what it is.
My own rival is myself. I am hard to please. I guessed you can say that my standards are freakin high. Well, that explains me being the "idealist". My friends also told me that my standards are high. I didn't believe them at first. Yes, ironically I didn't believe them until I realized that I was never satisfied with my work. I feel like there's still the best in me. And if I feel like I didn't give my best then it's not the best. I always want to do better. Better than me and well better than others. I guessed you can say that I am also quite competitive in mind. Yes, again - in mind. I am to idle to be competitive and to be the anxious perfectionist.


In relation with my last recent post. I know I told you that I was pleasing others. Don't worry, I won't take it back. I just have another realization and that is...
Pleasing others was also part of being competitive.
Well when it comes to arts you can say that I really based my perception of perfect in the way other receive it. But when it comes to academics and well other stuff, I am idealist in my own.
Because in academic you need to be precise. In art, well you know what they say "beauty is in the eye of the beholder". So that's why I think it bothers me on how will they see it, but then again I must still stay true to myself.

Now my question is.. is it a bad thing to have a high standard? or maybe I should just learn to appreciate others more. Oh! I appreciate their effort! Does it count? lol
Anyways, it seems like it's going nowhere so maybe I should just get back to my reading.