As I was watching The Perks of Being a Wallflower, the word "good at" suddenly pops out to my mind. Most of the people who I find cool or admire have something they're good at. They have their own "forte", which makes me question mine. To be honest I still don't know what is my forte. I still don't know where am I good at. I know I have the "potential" to do this and that, but "potential" is not enough.
I don't have the talent, maybe that's the problem. I really can't say that I believe that we all do have a talent and we just got to find it - since I don't know and I believe that I don't have one. I know everyone can acquire the skills, but sometimes skills alone is not good enough. It sucks when your knowledge, skills or even your talent is not enough. But when was anything has been enough? When can you actually tell that it is enough? What is enough truly means? I guessed nothing can really be enough if we're talking about ourselves. It takes a verification from others views of you to believe that you are enough. That you've done pretty well.
I don't have the talent, maybe that's the problem. I really can't say that I believe that we all do have a talent and we just got to find it - since I don't know and I believe that I don't have one. I know everyone can acquire the skills, but sometimes skills alone is not good enough. It sucks when your knowledge, skills or even your talent is not enough. But when was anything has been enough? When can you actually tell that it is enough? What is enough truly means? I guessed nothing can really be enough if we're talking about ourselves. It takes a verification from others views of you to believe that you are enough. That you've done pretty well.
I envy those people who can talk freely, happy and proud to their own forte or to their own likes. Others are good at music, writing, math, histories, art... It seems like they already find their place in the world. I know compare to other people whom I personally know - that I am way better - that I am in the processed of getting there. I don't want to make it sound like an arrogant person who thinks highly of herself, but it's the truth. Most of the people around me who's also around my age, seems so lost. Most of them just want a practical life and yet luxurious life (living in luxury w/o purpose). Maybe that's one the reasons why I thought I already found my place in the world...
Then I watched this incredible people who I'm not really sure if they do exist. People who already find its place in the world. People who knows exactly where they should be and that they are sure with that.
I want to find my place in the world. I want to find a place where I know I belong, not just because that's where I thought I should belong. I also want to find the feeling of belongingness - that I am not just there because I want too - that I'm there because it's my place. But I know the only place I could find where I truly belong is within myself. I have to know myself more, not because I don't know myself (I know myself better than anyone else). I just think that knowing yourself is a continuous process. As long as we breath, we discover something new from ourselves. I think that's the thrill in life. Exceeding your potential, discovering more about yourself, finding where you truly belong, trying different things - just the entire adventure of life. Life is full of self discovery; while discovering the world and the people in it you also discover yourself.
Then I watched this incredible people who I'm not really sure if they do exist. People who already find its place in the world. People who knows exactly where they should be and that they are sure with that.
I want to find my place in the world. I want to find a place where I know I belong, not just because that's where I thought I should belong. I also want to find the feeling of belongingness - that I am not just there because I want too - that I'm there because it's my place. But I know the only place I could find where I truly belong is within myself. I have to know myself more, not because I don't know myself (I know myself better than anyone else). I just think that knowing yourself is a continuous process. As long as we breath, we discover something new from ourselves. I think that's the thrill in life. Exceeding your potential, discovering more about yourself, finding where you truly belong, trying different things - just the entire adventure of life. Life is full of self discovery; while discovering the world and the people in it you also discover yourself.
P.S
The Perks of Being a Wallflower is really a funny - GREAT movie. I read the book last semester, I find the book quite boring, though, it has some interesting thoughts. To be honest, it has a lot of sense. It's just that I don't like it when the author makes it sound that Charlie have this mature thinking, but for me Charlie's thinking is just appropriate for his age it's just that most of the kid around him are just immature. Oh well, maybe most the kids in USA are like that or maybe west kids are really quite different - or we are all different.
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