change for the better

I've been posting about my struggle in my academic life. Basically I am depressed, anxious, frustrated, struggling in my academic life. I reflected a lot about it, and to be honest it pre-occupies me more than I expected it to be.

I've been doing my internship in different institution. I spent less time in school, I just have to spend my 2 days per week in school and the rest is at the other institution. And that makes me lazy, I already have 2 absences in my major - research, and we're only allowed to have 3 absences so just one absent then I'm dead. Other than my absences, I'm always late. My professor already talked about it to me, and I told him I won't be late again but instead I'll absent. LOL

So other than my absences and late, my prelim and midterm exam was not good. I got a passing score, but it's C and it's not something to be proud of. I hate C but I must admit it's better than D. But I need at least B+, I know it's my fault for receiving C, since I'm always absent and I really review for exams, I didn't even bother to open the book, but I'm not used to it especially in research. It's not that hard so why the hell I got C? Well, because I'm too lazy.

So now that I am to blamed for in what's happening in my academic life, I decided to bring back the drive that i lost.

Starting next week, I'll start over again. I won't be late, I'll do things on time and meet the deadlines (I just hope that it's not too late! >_<), I get back to my diet and healthy living! I'll save money, I won't buy anything that I don't need, I won't eat extravagantly. 

So, starting next week I'll be a good student. I don't wanna waste my parents money, I'm feeling guilty about it now.