Identity Crisis

Okay, so it's not what you think. I am having an identity crisis, I want to call it a midlife crisis but I realize that I still fall into the young adulthood side. So I am struggling now with my career. Just a few months ago, i realize what I want and I've been setting my goals and really high. Unfortunately, due to some unwanted turn of of events I feel like those goals that I set can become really impossible. I want to take up my masters in Harvard I know that it's close to impossible but I know nothing is impossible. I know, if it's really for me God will give it to be. So I've been making some plans for the Harvard thing. I am not sure if my GPA can make it but there's an extension school so maybe just maybe if they see potential I can make it through. Money also makes it sound more impossible but there's a grant and I hope my relatives can helped me too. So everything has been lighting up, if I can make it to Harvard that's fine as long as I will give my best and try. I also have some options here at my country, there's this one of the best schools in the country and probably the best among them. It's also hard but I know I can make it if I can have the best thesis now in my undergrad degree...

But now, it can really be impossible since that unfortunate turn of events the thesis title that we want was not approve by the dean. And he gave us a topic that has been over studied. I guessed he really doesn't read any journals about it. We did our best to fight for what we want but guessed what we lost of course since he's the freakin dean!


Now I am thinking, is this career that I want and currently pursuing is what God wants for me?? I know I want this. I want it so bad, and I am afraid that this might not what God want for me... I know I should trust him, after all everything went well in his way.


P.S I hope this is just another obstacle that I need to surpass that everything will fall into it's right places.