Things aren't going my way

I've been observing that whenever I made plans things just don't turn into the way I wanted it. Of course in making plans I'm quite sure that it will went well. But now I have proven that things doesn't really go the way I wanted it.

I have this perfect plans and yet they end up being junk.

This morning I went to this university to apply for my practicum at school settings, I was totally sure that it will go the way I wanted it, but unfortunately it didn't. Prelim and Christmas vacation are coming, so they said that if we're really willing to work at their school and if we really want to learn we have to start at January. And January is not a good month because we were planning to start our other parcticum in clinical setting. So we need to make up our minds. *if you're wondering who's that "we" it me and my one friend.
So my friend and I talked about it, if we're going to stay or not. To be honest I don't really want that university, because it's too far. Though, at the same time I see it as a challenge because I have to get used to traveling that far and with all the pollution, but then again by January I have to start my other practicum. So it was a hard decision. My friend really want there so I just go with it.  So we made our decision to stay and wait until January and just finished that 100 hrs. So we can apply and if we are lucky we can get into the clinic we want. So we told the officer in charged that we will take it. Then on our way home that friend suddenly said that she will think again if she wants to pursue it. Wtf? I'm really pissed! We talked about it earlier and now she's thinking of changing her mind? Can't she stick to her decision? At the first place she wanted it so I just go with the flow! Damn. We already passed our résumé, I won't let her ruin my image just because of her confusion! I already gave up the 50% chance in working at my first choice clinic to gave in for her and now she's thinking of backing off? Hell no!


So it's annoying. Hopefully tomorrow-later our professor will allow us and won't confuse us again. She might approve our decision. Anyways, please Lord I hoping that it will all end well (very well). I hope I can graduate soon! Please! October next year!