As of 1:07AM

I really have a irregular sleeping habits. I don't know if it's insomnia or what, but I want to think that my body just have a different time zone - like a forever jet lag. I have been always like this. Since I don't want to sleep, though I must admit I am sleepy now, because it's a tiring day. I want to start writing about my thoughts as of the moment.

Lately I have been talking to my friends, let me call her "P" and her as "D". P is currently suffering from heart ache, because her ex boyfriend broke up with him and he's the first guy who she dated seriously and now she feels like her ex found someone already. While, D... well she is in love with her best friend! Ugh. Still don't get it why people fall for their best friends, I have H, if you remember him. We've been friends like forever and I never see him anything more than a friend! Oh, yea he is like a brother. Anyways, so D is so madly in love with her best friend, and her best friend has a girl friend - it sucks, right? So they've been doing something naughty D and her so called best friend, I just hate that goat for hurting her! Now, she decided to actually move on (she's trying). As of me, well I'm single for like 6 years! It just that after my last relationship failed, I suddenly feel detached. I isolated myself, I changed or should I say I just returned to the person I used to be... but now, I am longing for love.

Let's put it this way, P want's to get over with her ex, D want's to find her prince charming and me, Sola who want's love again. Them having a broken heart, and me who's been empty for so long! I rather be broken than empty. Emptiness sucks. Broken, well it sucks too.

While most of our friends are happy with their boyfriends we are loner. lol - It makes me want to make a story about the 3 of us finding our way to love, but I guessed a  true story is better than a make up story, so I'll just updated you on how we're gonna make it! I hope we could hangout during sem break.

P.S When you read my past blog, you might be confused by the way I write, I know my english sucks. Also, the time transition, to protect my identity I kinda make it confusing and the names too. Sorry.

1:29AM